Is it possible to have this seizures and not lose conscience?

I had experience general seizures ,my hole body gets real stiff and i start to shake,my eyes shut down/close,and the reality is that I am not faking it.But I can still here everybody around and feel everything and im still conscience,i have never confess this,i have try but,the Dr. really don't get it when trying to explain it ones or Twice .so I have kept it a secret.i can not respond too quickly to anyone right after a seizure for few seconds or sometimes even minutes.but im still "aware".I feel beat up at times and relief at other times ,I dont get it,moody depending of trust level with others because is something i can not help and when I open my eyes,I dont want to face the world around me,its embarasing?people with little knowledge in this area + to religios = subgect to being judge.It does not matter because you know the truth,but it still matter peoples opinion-you can see it in there eyes and body language.So,I kind of withdrow/aisolate.oh by the way,please excuse my spelling English is my second language.please no joke,take me serious,i will appreciated.is this normal? or by the way my EGg 's test alway come abnormal electrical waves for my brain,epileptic seizures disorders, my first one at 21 of age,huh.jeez. I here a lot that people pee them self and do # 2 and im saying that in a respectful way to does that experience this my heart goes to them. but so far as far I know never has happen to me,thanks God.but all that happend to this people happen to me but not this other things again.good thing but-im confuse and they look confuse.i take a little wile to open my eyes.why?and to speak too...is like I cant Communicate,i hated when it happens in the hospital they are so loud ,asking you questions-"hello do you know where you at"? can you tell me your name and last name?i can here,i want to answer.but i cant.or maybe?i forgot how too?hum...i just want too yell at that person ,shut up...why your screaming...go away,live me alone.there voices really put me in a bad mood.do you remember your name?of course!i understand why they ask..but is not enough with answering with my head.I just want to turn the other side forget about the world close my eyes and sleep..please tell me,what you know and uh is ok,need advice and encouragement too,can you tell?!yikes..no,never had talk to someone with seizure disorders,it was a lonely world 4 a wile,today i was a bit more inform by the lady that did my Eeg test today.the test triggered me a seizure some blinking/jerking in my arms only...hhow bizarre.end up with headache and nausea's, feeling weird.but im ok.thanks again.